Meditation changed my life, in fact it became a way of life for me. It isn’t the typical, sit on the floor, cross-legged, eyes closed with hands forming a mudra type of thing. Although, if anyone watched me meditate they would see it but meditation is beyond what is seen and the only way anyone can understand meditation and what it does needs to practice it themselves.
Meditation for me is about the awareness of Formless Consciousness at all time, as I commit to any act and associating all thoughts and feelings to this Vast Void. What triggered this? Wrong question! Who triggered this? That is the question. This was simply triggered by a moment of surrendering to my spiritual Guru. Now, despite all the scientific research that has gone into meditation – it can only study the brain and the way it functions during meditation. What science cannot dissect or analyse is consciousness as they do not know why consciousness exists and how it was created. This is where spirituality is a science of knowing the inner self – your consciousness or as the Sanskrit term calls it the ‘atman’.
Meditation made me a calmer person and I used to get very agitated, irritated, annoyed at any little issue. With meditation slowly all the things that would prove to be an annoyance slowly faded away. It wasn’t as if it disappeared and I didn’t know how. I observed my thoughts slowly transform. I watched my consciousness change the way it started to see things – it moved from reactionary to responsive. It thought of both sides and then picked no sides. It responded to the moment and that was the only thing that it would have to ‘defend’ if it came to that.
Meditation made me experience love for the first time and it was a love that was unconditional. Yes, it was a broken heart that began meditation to mend the pieces back together but my heart has remained broken ever since. It hasn’t pieced itself back together, it hasn’t even made the attempt. Now, I love like there is only love. Even in hate, I see love. I do not find hate to be an absolute opposite. Hate is simply a premature state of love. I disagree even with the words ‘like’ or ‘fancy’ someone because it means love really. We don’t like to be honest, or frank about it but love is simply love. It’s opposite called hate is just a premature state and it will eventually evolve into love. Hate is another gateway into love. Maybe it is this new formulation of love that has helped me to accept people as they are even if they annoy the hell out of me. I accept it and move on.
Meditation has made me accept me for who I am. I mentioned earlier that I started meditation due to heartbreak but that was just a reason for me to get to know who I am. I would go further from the previous paragraph that nobody can break your heart and when you realise this then your meditation goes deeper. When you realise that it was your thoughts and feelings that made you feel the way you do then you can transform pain to something of the beyond. Once I did that I was able to see past the silliness of who I thought I was and started being more. When you are more centred in Being then life is simpler and even fascinating. I realised that this personality will always have flaws but what I am and who I am is beyond all these labels, definitions and ideas that people possess.
Meditation has made me accept my own mortality. Accepting the fact that you are going to die is no easy task because who wants to think about an apparent ‘morbid’ topic? For me, death is one of my favourite topics because it no longer has a place in fear but has a place of celebration and love. Meditation allows you to explore what it would be like when you die and the answer is always well it wouldn’t matter because I would be dead anyway. Death is only for the mind and dying before you die is giving your atman the place of your mind as the driving living force of your being. When you are able to accept this then you become somewhat immortal as you know that death can only be for the temporary but how can death happen to something that has no beginning or end? If you have been there before time became a factor in creation then surely you will outlast it. I used to do an inquiry into when I was born. So before I was a foetus, was I a sperm cell or an egg, or was I cells that made those, was I from the air that my mother or father breathed first. When was the beginning? I kept exploring and eventually I found that I couldn’t locate it. Surely, I would have to be there before creation to know that has been created. You may need to read this a few times to truly grasp what I am saying.
Meditation made me more open minded towards other cultures, other communities, religion, and spiritual affiliations, people who are hard hit by society, their gender or sexuality. I used to judge a lot and have very strong opinions about things and they had to be either this way or that way. Now, I only see oneness. I am able to still have opinions but my compassion and understanding is for everyone. Meditation allows you to see beyond the surface so it is not that easy to formulate a definitive opinion, instead it is an opinion that is fluid and adaptable. When you see the other as a reflection of you then it becomes easier to be a little kind and look past the diversity in the other and see it as a unifying force.
Meditation has made me see the laughter in a lot of things. In fact, it has made me less serious and this is because meditation has helped me be a very happy person with a carefree attitude too. I am serious when it comes to the actual meditation but this seriousness is not one that sucks the energy out of you. It is a seriousness that has a taste of devotion towards completing an act because you love it. A sense of humour becomes part of life as you realise that everything that we hold to be important is not really that important and jokes also challenge our perceptions. Living life with a lot of laughter and smiles is the way the meditator experiences life. Enlightenment is a serious game but that is what it is a game and at the end, it is best to laugh about the result, whether it is in your favour or not. Remember, your atman has nothing to do with the results, it just lives because that is what is important – it rests and loves in Being.
Meditation gives you a resounding sense of bliss and bliss has no opposite. Bliss is what occurs when you go beyond the senses and meditation assures that. Bliss is a feeling or an experience that goes beyond thought or emotion. Imagine that! When this first hit me, I was expecting a come down because I felt like I was high on drugs. There was no come down and there never has been. Bliss is very important to live life to the fullest. This is why we do risky things in life. With risks, we want to access something that is beyond the status quo of what should be achieved. Bliss is a blessing and this is all due to the grace of a living Guru that it is maintained. You will get this sense of bliss anywhere and it can be invited without an invitation. You can be at work and it hits you and you are in this state of bliss. You could have tears of joy or be smiling constantly – this is the beauty of bliss and meditation stabilises it.
Meditation has made me observe my ego and my ego hates it. The ego tries to go crazy whenever someone praises a blog post, praises a speech I do or a poem I recite or write. It loves to fill me in with a sense of pride and I watch all this as an observer. An Observer that then recognises that it has also become the observed. This is the state of witnessing and this runs side by side with bliss. When you begin to observe the ego, the less power it gets. The ego tries to catch you with thoughts that are totally unrelated to the present moment and you are able to shrug it away by telling it that it has no place with you. The ego is eventually put to the side to die slowly whilst you live in the witnessing state of bliss consciousness.
As you can see meditation has had a positive impact on my life and I would like that other people experience this. It helps you to see reality for what it is. You are able to be more present, more mindful and this is what enhances life towards new dimensions. Meditation is easily enhanced with a presence of a Guru, who can show you Reality without a precondition. If you have a strong thirst to know life, to understand what it is all about then with the guidance of the Guru – the meditation enhances. This has been the secret for what has happened with me in meditation. Due to this realisation, I sit with the company of the wise, I serve humanity because everyone is my own and I am in remembrance of this Formless Consciousness that is within me, every living being and beyond existence too.
What has meditation done for you?
What would you like meditation to do for you?
When would you like to meditate?
Are you finding it difficult to meditate?
It is better to speak up than keep it in. Sometimes the answer is in the asking.
His love and blessings