Discover like an agnostic

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I have quite a few friends who are atheists and to be fair, they are some of the best people that I know. I have never believed that people who believe in a God are somewhat better than those that do not. I have felt that those that drown themselves in dogma, end up harming society more because time has moved on, cultures have evolved and yet the practices remain the same.

I am a keen meditator and although I don’t believe in any abrahamic version of a god, I do believe that within us and around us, there is Formless, Conscious Energy. This is the creator, sustainer and destroyer all in one. It has no end and no beginning. It can never be defined and most of all, you can only experience this as you live as it is – or live in your most natural state.

We have been programmed to judge others, to be skeptical of others, to gossip about others when really why do we even care? I understand that judgment is needed, certainly some people are so entrenched in their ego, that does mean you will suspect an ulterior motive but your way of being shouldn’t change. You will not trust that person for sure, but love and respect will always be what you speak of.

The biggest challenge for me is that despite being an atheist in some ways, I would say I am happily an agnostic. I simply love the fact that I don’t know and even if I did know, I want to stay in the state of “I don’t know” because therein lies the beauty of discovery.

One thing is for sure, I go with whatever someone’s vibe is telling me. If someone tells me an experience or something that is not true, I will never say that it isn’t true. I will silently listen. This is how one should approach whether there is a god or not. Meditate and contemplate until there is nothing there. That is what I am doing. You can surely try it and let me know if you want to know how.

 

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Surrender – The Final Episode

humilityHow easy is it to surrender?

The moment I let go of who I am and become the ‘I am’ then surrender is there. Surrender isn’t making yourself any lower, in fact it takes you on a higher dimension. You may want to ask, how is it that surrender helps? Why should I give an Unknown energy or person more power over me? The issue with power is that it is all ego. When you see your Master or the Text and you see the Truth in those elements expressed in every sentient energy existing on the planet, you can surrender as there are no differences between you and any thing else. All are One. All are sparks of the Divine. Letting go of your ego is one sure way of becoming something more universal.

Speak of the Universal Truth – does this make it easier to surrender?

We haven’t tackled the aspect of surrender yet. What does it mean? I have a Satguru – a True Master or True Guru. Now, He is my reflection whenever I enter awareness of the Formless. This is where no thoughts appear, no emotions, no language, no sound, no feeling, no intention etc. It is pure. In this state, surrender is natural as you have nothing to give up. Without thought, the ego cannot survive. Living in the now, just being is the main practice and way of life for a devotee. It is not that thought does not occur; you are simply not what you think. When you are not what you think, you become what you are – the ‘I am’, the soul, the consciousness that pervades everywhere. The Universal Truth is contained in the ‘I am’ but is yet, beyond the ‘I am’. It is beyond consciousness. It can be consciousness but consciousness cannot become the Universal Truth.

How can the Universal Truth help me in my daily life like my job?

Who is it that is living? Who is it that is breathing? Who is it that has a job? There is only the personality that functions in that space. However, we enter times when life becomes too much. Sometimes you parents do not understand you, or your friends fail to give a helping hand. Or you may find the workload at school and work is getting overwhelming and you feel the pressure is crushing you. In these moments, only speak if necessary. Otherwise, just stay silent and observe for a minute what is happening. Watch your thoughts, emotions, intentions, attitude all appear and disappear in the screen of your consciousness. Once, you have taken the step back you will find yourself calm again as the screen only projects what the mind perceives. Once you watch this, you find a separation between the mind and the screen. Therefore, in this moment you know the observer is still, silent and forever in calming bliss. This screen is the Universal Truth and it’s tool for you to differentiate between reality and the illusion of perception. Perception is all you have but perception is not who you are.

Is surrender the end goal?

Surrender is a journey. Some can do it instantly and some take time. It takes me time. I have to remind myself constantly that this is not me and I am beyond all this. I have to observe the screen and watch the projection fade away and appear and fade away. This is why yoga is done. Yoga is not someone breathing or doing the physical exercises, a time comes in yoga when the doer becomes the doing. The yogi observes the body doing yoga. This is why yoga is important and aids meditation unless you have access to the Universal Truth, which I fortunately have. Surrender is not a goal to be achieved; it is something that happens behind the scenes. When you realise that all of life is simply a play, a little drama in the whole universe, you simply let go and become of service to the Universe and Humanity that finds its home in the grandest stage of them all.

I cannot surrender so easily to what basically is nothing.

This statement is not you but the ego that thinks it is you. What do you mean you cannot surrender so easily to basically nothing? Say even if you have to surrender to someone, is it easier then? Yet, you do surrender. Do you not surrender to your boss out of fear of losing your job? Do you not surrender to the politicians for the hope of change? Do you not surrender to your parents for some pocket money or help? Do you not surrender to a loved one for expression of love or a fancy gift? Do you not surrender to intoxicants like alcohol, nicotine and drugs in order to feel the intoxication? The moment your ego wants something from someone, you surrender. You do not realise this but it happens. You surrender to very mundane things, yet surrender to God or Universal Truth or to a Guru is something you will never consider. You will find that somehow, some way or another you are searching for these things. You can mask it with things like peace of mind, bliss, mindfulness etc. All it is that you are looking for a door to walk through and all you are doing is walking into the door, instead of knocking. The Universal Truth is everything, the True Guru is everything and it is only when you lose yourself then you find that. Now, losing yourself, who are you? Nothing. And if this ‘nothing’ surrenders to everything then what does it become? Everything! In fact, you do not become ‘nothing’ you become ‘no-thing’. Only a ‘no-thing’ can become everything. This is when not a single element is in your being. You are a clean slate. Become a clean slate and watch the Universal Truth pour in.

Surrender makes sense now, why can’t it be fast?

Do not look for results because that is intention, thought and emotion. Just be. Be in being and everything will take place at its own pace. There is no rush. You have eternity to make this happen. You will find time is a concept in order to live in the world but you are timeless. This whole universe is timeless. We use time to help us understand the Timeless. Therefore, surrender is timeless.

Once I surrender, what happens?

Don’t think about it too much that you forget to be in being. Just relax. Take it easy and realise that this life isn’t yours. There are two moments in life that you had and have no control over. Your own birth and death. When it happens, nobody knows and you have no say in the matter. Nobody can save you. The moment you are born, you are a ticking time bomb. You are ready to go at any moment. Life has become conditioned to such an extent that we forget that we are ready to go. The next moment, I may not finish this sentence and I could be gone. It is all well and good. I know that I cannot go anywhere. I am always here. I am always in the now. I am every particle in the universe, every atom contains me and I am contained in every atom. Everyone is a reflection of me and I am a reflection of everyone else. I am both timeless and time bound. I am both limited and limitless. I am both one and many. I am both form and formless. I am both false and truth. I am both motion and stillness. There is no contradiction in life, all is complementary and has a function in the grand scheme of everything. Every action is not my action, although I may perform it. Every thought is not my thought, although it arises in my mind. Every intention is not my intention, although it is perceived in the screen of consciousness. You are both the observer and the observed. You are the watcher and the watched, the witness and the witnessed. When this happens, you enter into the realm of the Divine – the Universal Truth.

Meditation and yoga, no matter how secular you make it, it will become a spiritual practice. Spiritual realisation does not belong to religion. Religion belongs to spiritual realisation. Without realisation, religion is good as dead. The Universal Truth is Formless and this Formless pervades and is immersed in all consciousness. Without the Formless, consciousness cannot be. You are Formless, a spark of the Divine and your consciousness has always known this despite being filled with the ego. Let go of who you think you are and inherit what you have been, what you are now and what you always will be. Surrender makes you awesome because what you are surrendering to will always be awesome. Surrender is the first and final episode of your existence, as and in the Formless.

His Love and Blessings,
Rahul N Singh

Post 42 – God is not but Formless Consciousness is!

Some things have to be cleared up. I had realised that my statement ‘I know God does not exist’ had created certain misunderstandings. I received a private message on Twitter today saying ‘With your current belief – shouldn’t you believe in God?’ It is a very valid question and I think he meant in terms of my religion or the spiritual institution/movement that I follow and have trust in. I replied saying I will write the answer on my blog.

First of all, I am definitely standing next to my previous statements that God does not exist. Now, let’s make this clear as far as I am concerned I don’t believe in a man in a sky and neither do I think God is a creator and is separate to our existence. I also want to maintain that God did not create religion and if he did, I am sure he doesn’t like the outcome. Even if he did exist – someone as humble as God wouldn’t really care if you believed in him or not. Now can you see what I have done there – I have made God sound really human. This is what my problem with God is. If anything we have humanised God and there can be no denial about that. Why would God feel love when it is an emotion of our mind? Why would God want to create fear within us against him? If he is supreme – we don’t need to mould him into some form of a dictator. So I don’t believe in any religion or movement/institution that humanises God! Once you do this to God then he loses all meaning.

The other thing is I have stated that God is Formless. Now I want to remove God – as you can see from above I don’t want to humanise my definition. Therefore, take time to understand this. I have called God – consciousness, cosmic energy, godliness, creativity and the reason for this is okay – you cannot see the first three descriptions – they have to be felt. You have to go beyond the mind to comprehend this. Creativity is what this existence does – it continues to create and expand. We can see the evidence of this all around us and it goes beyond our galaxies to other galaxies. Now if God is Formless then full stop. You can describe it but it will not be the true taste. If something is formless, you cannot add anything human into it. It is beyond our intelligence – hence I don’t classify myself an atheist. I don’t believe this Formless Consciousness will judge you, will determine if you are a sinner, will punish you or even save you. This Formless Consciousness is within us, around us and everywhere, it is upto us to connect with it, we have to realise it, we have to unite with it. So we have to remove God because he has a baggage and I feel the centuries of baggage has really began to stink. Therefore, I wish to call it Formless Consciousness.

People may say I do not believe in God…I agree. Any religion or movement/institution that adds ‘qualities’ to God then that God does not exist. God is beyond these silly human qualities. Read Tao. This Consciousness is ultimately nameless because you can only experience it, and it is the only experience which the human language cannot describe. I don’t believe in mainstream religion and its God but I know for sure that this Consciousness is everywhere, it is around us and it is within us. It is silent. It has no language. You have to remove everything material to it to understand it. I am not an atheist and I am not a theist. If I can’t describe this Formless Consciousness in its totality then you simply cannot describe my stance on ‘God’!

I hope now some people will understand me a lot clearly and it cannot get more simple than this. However, to be honest I am sure the more I find the answer within, the more simple it gets.

Stay blessed

Rahul N Singh

PS. Will announce my book on Friday! Stay tuned!

Is there a God?

Whilst in meditation today, I had submerged into a moment of pure silence. Now, this silence is not as normal as I thought it would be. This time, I felt like I had been hypnotised. Imagine not thinking at all. Imagine having no thoughts. In this particular state that lasted two minutes, I felt like I had been sitting hours in prayer. I had realised so much but it had made me question a lot.

For those who know me well, I read a lot on Osho. Funny enough, he was saying that there is not a God – well not the one you imagine up in the sky or say even is  a Single Being. On top of that, I had been writing my poetry for days and even then I felt that religion’s version of God cannot exist. But I have faith in spirituality. But I cannot believe there is a superior being somewhere that will decide my fate of paradise or eternal damnation.

In fact, I had been brought up with the concept that ‘Self-realisation is God-realisation’. Now I can say this statement is true. For it is yourself that you must realise and if you realise who you are (trust me the answer is so simple, I am sure many fools have ignored it) then that means you have realised God. Now, Osho questions how can you say you believe in God and then fight that God exists. When we see light, we don’t say – ‘Yes, I believe that is light.’ No! We say – that is light. End of. We know light exists. And if anyone tells you that they have seen God because they saw a bright light – they are lying to you. They have not even realised themselves, they have been told by religious texts that God-realisation occurs when you see a bright light. So therefore, in the anticipation they have only imagine that light. it is a fragment of their imagination. They have realised that they have imagination but they have failed to remain in nothingness – which is essential.

So this got me thinking even more that realistically, to know God, I got to know myself. And if it means that by realising myself means I have realised God then ultimately that means I am God. Before, people shout blasphemy, look at what I am writing logically and it will work. If you don’t agree then question me.

Therefore, the existence of a Separate One God – I simply cannot accept. I can believe that God is purely creative. It is a divine, creative Energy but I cannot accept anything else. I can accept it is formless but the form (what we see around us) –  cannot be an illusion. God is not a magician, God is a creator – an artist. In fact, the creation is a distraction to remove the nature of nothingness. God is a trickster and a joker. God definitely has a sense of humour. If we know nothingness exists then God definitely exists. But God is ever-expanding, it is infinite Energy that I am part of, that you are part of (but you are yet to realise that). I also realise that my Guru is right. In fact, he is God to me. He knows the reality. I can see the logic in his teachings. For humans to understand God, you have to tell them that God exists and then you come with the statement ‘Self-realisation is God-realisation’. That is the best statement that has ever existed. The fact remains that when we become the self – then we have become God. We have gone and experienced the nothingness. It is pure bliss. I cannot say that God does not exist but I don’t believe in the God that religion has created. I can see the God that is within us, within me and within you. The God that is pure creative energy. That creative energy has made everything out of love. So whatever God is, I know God is pure love. If I have realised who I am then I can give pure love. Otherwise, I will be continuously expecting love and falling out of favour with love. I will continue to believe in the stupid concept of give and take.

So the question has been answered so far. Does the religion’s God exist? No. Does the God of pure Energy exist that we have in each one of us, each one of us who is unique? Yes. We are all a constellation of One Soul. That is probably the best image I can give that we are all linked by One Soul. That One Soul is everywhere, it is always going to exist.

I still feel that my thoughts are not enough but this is enough for today. I don’t want to scare people too much.

Lots of love and God bless.

Rahul N Singh