With Baba Ji – my journey continues…

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You can wake up in the morning, everything will occur as normal but something is missing, something just doesn’t feel right. That is how I feel everyday since my Spiritual Master left His body three years ago.

His kindness, His humility and His loving personality won many hearts and it definitely won mine. I spend time thinking about Baba ji, my Spiritual Master very often in the day. Whether it is a walk down the corridor, I think of Him and my eyes well up with tears. I am in the car and I look at the clear blue sky and a flash of His image appears in front of, obviously from my own mind, but yet a sign to say, nothing truly dies. I am sitting in my temple, and a thought that Baba ji gave is heard and my heart skips a beat, as if not knowing what to do with the thought that He is known in the past tense now.

He was someone where my spirituality began, where my spirituality continues and where my spirituality will one day end. He is my past, my present and my future. I haven’t loved anyone as much as I have loved Him and I know so many, that feel the same way with me.

The great thing about Baba ji was that He somehow was able to reflect however you saw Him. If you saw Him as a cool person, He was just a cool person. If you saw Him as a person you admire for His sincerity, that is what He reflected. For me, I was fortunate, very lucky by fate or my own faith that I was able to see Him as my Satguru, my Spiritual Master of Truth. For me, He was a God and much more. Maybe this is why there is a lot of pain in the physical loss as right now, I am in growing pains, I am trying to realize the subtle form of His that I know He had planted into me when I was initiated with His wisdom.

I have often said that I reached a peak of one mountain when He was alive and when He died, He took me from that peak and placed me at the bottom of the largest mountain one can ever perceive. For some, they may find that Rahul isn’t as spiritual as He used to be, he was calmer before, he didn’t get so angry but actually I have started climbing this mountain, which I literally have no map to guide me with except my own self. All I know and what I totally have faith and trust in is that I have to find the compass of the inner guru within me – sooner, rather than later.

I am now content in that I cannot change anyone, inspire anyone, or even truly advise them on their spiritual journey except for what I know and like I said right now, I don’t know much as I am climbing this mountain, of which I have climbed only a few steps up. So everyone literally has to bear with me here.

What I have learned is that these three years, which was literally about abseiling down the mountain of which, I had reached my peak. I had to take the valuable lessons and be thankful for they have taught me so much. Now the Master is going to advise me from within but the foundation of all that will be advised from now is literally from what I learned from my Spiritual Master before His passing.

All I now know and what I knew before was that it was all up to me. I had to have the faith and I had to be in charge of my growth. Nobody could take me there. I recall a conversation that I had with Baba ji when I was around 19 years old. We were walking at the Center for Oneness, West London and for some strange reason, Baba ji stopped walking and stepped inside as we were in mid-conversation. It was only me and Him. I poured my heart to Him and said “Baba ji, I am struggling. I am doing sumiran (remembrance) but I am not connecting. I feel my faith is weak.” Baba ji looked at me, smiled and in a quizzing manner. “Rahul ji, I don’t understand how your faith is weak when it is so strong?” I just stared into His eyes for a few seconds, my eyes moist, lost in His humility, His love and His mercy I bowed and touched His feet for around 10 seconds, to which when I was getting up, He was holding my shoulders and He gave me the biggest hug. As we pulled away from the hug, we both gave the biggest smiles to each other and we both bowed as I stepped away so another devotee could talk to Him.

This conversation changed the whole direction of my spiritual journey. I started questioning my whole belief system a couple of years later in order to get what I perceived as ‘weak’ faith into something so strong that it is unbreakable. However, a lesson I have learned recently is that I was in charge of my faith. I decide whether it is strong or weak and that whatever faith you have for yourself, is how much faith you truly have with the Master. If you feel you are incapable then the Master can do very little to change that because you feel incapable. However, you can feel incapable but you know your Master is with you, within you so now you are absolutely capable and this brings forth a very strong faith.

I have a lot to thank Baba ji for and He knows how much He means to me and nothing can change that. No philosophy, no teaching can change that. Like I said earlier, it ends with Him. We are meant to have full faith in a living Master, to which I absolutely agree with. Living is subject to one’s definition. Does someone have to be physically alive to be living? Or can someone be alive through consciousness itself -in a more subtle form? One of the rules of nature is that energy never dies but is transferred. All that has happened to Satguru Baba Hardev Singh ji on this day, three years ago was that the energy that was physical or gross matter became subtle matter.

This post has come from a lot of reflection with some meditation too. I don’t know if what I believe in right now will give me liberation but all I do know is that I know that is my destination. Thank you Baba ji. Love You and miss You! Your child forever.

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Post 43 – 5 steps to remove stress

Stress is the most common problem today. Whether it is exams are round the corner, an important project file needs to be handed in at work. Family relationships are getting more tense, the wife wants another holiday, the kids want to start dating and are obviously going through adolescence. He probably also has a mistress to look after too, after all having sex with someone other than your wife or girlfriend doesn’t come cheap. Today, can be said the same for women. Women have progressed and for all the right reasons, they have grown and grown. They have to face decisions on whether to concentrate on their career or have a baby.  They may also be having another love affair. The woman may also have the burden of not knowing who the real father is. The husband may feel he may not be the father. The teenagers and young adults have to go through changes in the body, the realisation of their hormones, and also have to face exams and coursework worries. On top of that, their parents are over-protective or do not even give a damn about them. They could have a boyfriend or a girlfriend, who is immature and inconsiderate. Even if they are in the so-called best relationships, they shout ‘love’ as if they understand it. Inside they know they don’t understand it and this leads to their subconscious remaining confused about love. Those kids know that their subconscious could rip open any time. University graduates have to worry about getting a job, a mortgage and a possible family life despite a recession and an incompetent government. You don’t know what to do except keep it all in. You allow the stress to gather inside – thus leaving your mental stability on the rocks.

Most stress is our emotions. Our emotions are attached to everything that we do. Inside, there is some emotion behind the stress that we feel. At the end, we do not want to feel pain, we do not want to face disappoint. Young, or old, you just want to live life freely, so how to do it as easy as ABC is the main questions.

Here are the steps:

1. Sit down on your own – This is an important step to take. Now, sit anywhere – in your office, your bedroom, your closet or even your bathroom. Sit down on a chair, on the floor, whatever you feel like doing. You can stand up if you want, you can walk of you want. Just be free in the comfort of your own being and close your eyes. Just sit there in silence, allow thoughts, visions and your imagination to roam free. Just relax. Breathe slowly, become aware of each breath. Do this up to 3 minutes.

2. Remember everything that causes stress – Think of all the events, the moments that have caused you stress. Your heart may race a little bit faster than usual but become aware of everything. Think of everything. Let it boil up. Feel all your emotions, all that stress rise up – from the centre of your being to the mind. Spend up to 6 minutes on it.

3. Scream and laugh – Now you must scream out all your stress, everything that you have kept in, imagine all the stresses releasing out of your mind, out of your body. If you can’t scream for obvious reasons, then imitate the screams, allow your body to throw out the stress. Don’t restrict your body to move at this point. Even if you are screaming inside, witness and watch the stress as you throw it out. Do this up to 3 minutes or longer depending on how much stress you have.

Then start laughing or feel the laughter within you. Just laugh, you don’t need a reason. If you do then; think of the good times, think of jokes but you must laugh. Laughter is infectious, so once you start you should keep laughing. Best thing to laugh at is the stress that you have ‘vomited’ out. Look at the silliness of it. But your main happiness should be that you have no more stress within you. Be aware of the laughter, feel it from within. This should last up to 3 minutes.

4. Listen to music – For upto 7 minutes, relax with some music. Keep your body free and don’t be worried about dancing. Even if you listen to the music let it be something classical, that gives you goosebumps. Otherwise it can be modern and it can have lyrics. Just feel good. Whatever makes you want to celebrate. Whatever makes you feel very good about life, let the music enter your mind. It is best if doesn’t have lyrics as it will do justice to the next step. I have a file on rapidshare for some music that I feel will be better or any new age music. The link to the music file is: http://rapidshare.com/files/442407518/stress_music_1.rar

5. Sit in silence – Now, you must sit in silence for 5 minutes with your eyes closed. Try and think of nothing. Don’t remember what you did in the past  minutes. If it makes it easier for you then concentrate on your breathing, become one with the breathes that you take. Otherwise, keep your mind blank and in silence. If you want to imagine anything, then imagine only darkness, endless darkness. Allow yourself to become friendly with the darkness. Feel it’s energy wrap around you, this soundless energy. Try and feel that buzz everywhere, around you, touching your body. Let yourself free.

Overall it can be done in 21 minutes. It is literally 1.5% of your whole day, it will not cost you much time at all. You are given freedom but you must follow the steps in the way presented. This has worked for me and it can work with you.  You can do this as many times as you want in a day. It can be less or it can be more than the 21 minutes, the main objective is that you must de-stress yourself. If you follow this regularly then you will eventually be detached from stress, you may get stressed but you will know how to remove it. Try it and tell me if it works.

Stay blessed

Rahul N Singh