Approaching the Spiritual Master

A single moment with a (Spiritual) Master can transform your life. Recently, I read about how there are four types who approach a Master.

  1. Follower – they are more of a spectator. They visit the Master because maybe there has been a miracle that happened in their life when they first came into contact with the Master. They only arrive to meet the Master because sometimes they like the charisma, the personality and the aura of the Master. They appreciate the teachings, they love the Master too but they don’t know the Master intimately. This leads them to be followers but with no depth of spirituality. The mind is so cunning of followers that they may be able to parrot the teachings but they have no experience of it.
  2. Disciple – they listen to the message, they practice some of the teachings and they love being in the company of the Master. They listen very intently to the Master, they talk about the teachings and they serve but they have other motives at time. They can be a little political and allow their egos to sometimes get the better of them. Even though they love the Master, they have a little depth of spirituality, they possess a little of the inner experience but their heart isn’t completely for the Truth. They are totally in love with the physical form of the Master, that they have not tried to understand if there is anything more to the Master.  They will speak of the Master as what they understand the Master to be.
  3. Devotee – they listen to the message and understand the silence of the Master. They practice the teachings, they meditate and try to get rid of their ego through self-inquiry. They are not just attached to the physical form of the Master, they understand that there is an inner form of the Master. Their love to the Master is one that is close to union but there is still  a duality between the Master and devotee.  They vouch for the Truth but it is still mainly conceptual. They seek to understand more, they read more spiritual texts. They are very close to being enlightened, they are nearly there. They are great spiritual beings to be around, they will inspire because they will speak of the Master as the Master is.
  4. Mystic – they listen to the Master, understand the silence and beyond the silence too. They can look into the eyes of the Master and they lose all sense of self. They are one with the Master and there is no real difference between the two. They live and breath the Master. They are enlightened, they have understood the Truth and are consumed it. Their understanding is based on their own inner experience. They have not only the understanding of the Truth, they are able to observe all through the Truth. They live in the world, not consumed by it, they use the world to their needs over wants. They inspire everyone because of their energy, they are exactly what is expected by the Master. They are truly free from the ego and its trappings. They are in constant union with the Master, the representation of the Formless.

These are the 4 types that approach the Master and neither are good or bad, it is all based on what you want in life. All are welcome by the Master.

If someone throws a stone…

We all have the power within us to change how we want to live and perceive life. If we are consumed with our thoughts too much, we tend to feel heavy, tired, sleepy, lethargic. If we are consumed with awareness, we tend feel light, energetic, full of life and eager to live.

The difference is that when you feel change isn’t in your hands then you have opened yourself to any possibility that you may not desire. However, if you feel that you can be an instrument of change and then that means, change yourself first.

We are always looking around us on who will change first or feel that someone else needs to change. In fact, the change has to come from within me. As my Spiritual Master once said that if someone throws stones at you, instead of building a wall, build a bridge.

This type of insight can help one understand that forgiveness is the bridge and that enmity is the wall. Acceptance is the bridge, humility is the bridge. Once, we understand this, we are able to look within ourselves, be humbly, forgive ourselves and understand that all the strength we need to better ourselves, is waiting to be utilized.

With Baba Ji – my journey continues…

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You can wake up in the morning, everything will occur as normal but something is missing, something just doesn’t feel right. That is how I feel everyday since my Spiritual Master left His body three years ago.

His kindness, His humility and His loving personality won many hearts and it definitely won mine. I spend time thinking about Baba ji, my Spiritual Master very often in the day. Whether it is a walk down the corridor, I think of Him and my eyes well up with tears. I am in the car and I look at the clear blue sky and a flash of His image appears in front of, obviously from my own mind, but yet a sign to say, nothing truly dies. I am sitting in my temple, and a thought that Baba ji gave is heard and my heart skips a beat, as if not knowing what to do with the thought that He is known in the past tense now.

He was someone where my spirituality began, where my spirituality continues and where my spirituality will one day end. He is my past, my present and my future. I haven’t loved anyone as much as I have loved Him and I know so many, that feel the same way with me.

The great thing about Baba ji was that He somehow was able to reflect however you saw Him. If you saw Him as a cool person, He was just a cool person. If you saw Him as a person you admire for His sincerity, that is what He reflected. For me, I was fortunate, very lucky by fate or my own faith that I was able to see Him as my Satguru, my Spiritual Master of Truth. For me, He was a God and much more. Maybe this is why there is a lot of pain in the physical loss as right now, I am in growing pains, I am trying to realize the subtle form of His that I know He had planted into me when I was initiated with His wisdom.

I have often said that I reached a peak of one mountain when He was alive and when He died, He took me from that peak and placed me at the bottom of the largest mountain one can ever perceive. For some, they may find that Rahul isn’t as spiritual as He used to be, he was calmer before, he didn’t get so angry but actually I have started climbing this mountain, which I literally have no map to guide me with except my own self. All I know and what I totally have faith and trust in is that I have to find the compass of the inner guru within me – sooner, rather than later.

I am now content in that I cannot change anyone, inspire anyone, or even truly advise them on their spiritual journey except for what I know and like I said right now, I don’t know much as I am climbing this mountain, of which I have climbed only a few steps up. So everyone literally has to bear with me here.

What I have learned is that these three years, which was literally about abseiling down the mountain of which, I had reached my peak. I had to take the valuable lessons and be thankful for they have taught me so much. Now the Master is going to advise me from within but the foundation of all that will be advised from now is literally from what I learned from my Spiritual Master before His passing.

All I now know and what I knew before was that it was all up to me. I had to have the faith and I had to be in charge of my growth. Nobody could take me there. I recall a conversation that I had with Baba ji when I was around 19 years old. We were walking at the Center for Oneness, West London and for some strange reason, Baba ji stopped walking and stepped inside as we were in mid-conversation. It was only me and Him. I poured my heart to Him and said “Baba ji, I am struggling. I am doing sumiran (remembrance) but I am not connecting. I feel my faith is weak.” Baba ji looked at me, smiled and in a quizzing manner. “Rahul ji, I don’t understand how your faith is weak when it is so strong?” I just stared into His eyes for a few seconds, my eyes moist, lost in His humility, His love and His mercy I bowed and touched His feet for around 10 seconds, to which when I was getting up, He was holding my shoulders and He gave me the biggest hug. As we pulled away from the hug, we both gave the biggest smiles to each other and we both bowed as I stepped away so another devotee could talk to Him.

This conversation changed the whole direction of my spiritual journey. I started questioning my whole belief system a couple of years later in order to get what I perceived as ‘weak’ faith into something so strong that it is unbreakable. However, a lesson I have learned recently is that I was in charge of my faith. I decide whether it is strong or weak and that whatever faith you have for yourself, is how much faith you truly have with the Master. If you feel you are incapable then the Master can do very little to change that because you feel incapable. However, you can feel incapable but you know your Master is with you, within you so now you are absolutely capable and this brings forth a very strong faith.

I have a lot to thank Baba ji for and He knows how much He means to me and nothing can change that. No philosophy, no teaching can change that. Like I said earlier, it ends with Him. We are meant to have full faith in a living Master, to which I absolutely agree with. Living is subject to one’s definition. Does someone have to be physically alive to be living? Or can someone be alive through consciousness itself -in a more subtle form? One of the rules of nature is that energy never dies but is transferred. All that has happened to Satguru Baba Hardev Singh ji on this day, three years ago was that the energy that was physical or gross matter became subtle matter.

This post has come from a lot of reflection with some meditation too. I don’t know if what I believe in right now will give me liberation but all I do know is that I know that is my destination. Thank you Baba ji. Love You and miss You! Your child forever.

Sipping on some coffee

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It is one of those days where I get an extra hour of sleep as that is my body’s idea of a lie-in. I enjoy that extra one hour and I contemplate on what I am thankful for and what I plan for the day.

Planning for the day is a structure that I like but I know doesn’t truly exist. The day can bring beautiful opportunities and some crazy distractions at the same time. It is simply dependent on how one interpret the day ahead.

Whatever happens in the day, I find that it is important to keep a cool mind and embrace as much as you can. As always, be aware that nobody or no situation takes advantage of your good self.

Be humble enough to know that you can be wrong and smart enough to know that you can make things right.

I am going back to sipping on my coffee and contemplating.

Hope your day goes beautiful,

Being on the Right Path is Not Enlightenment

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Being on the spiritual path is one thing. Being enlightened is totally another thing. Sometimes I feel when I hear people talking about being enlightened, it really is not enlightenment at all. It is more an appreciation or recognition of the spiritual path they are on.

The delusion that it is enlightenment causes great harm for one’s spiritual progress. The drive for growth is cut prematurely and it will be hard to invoke growth when the ego is strengthened as it establishes itself in the false delusion of enlightenment.

Sometimes we are in the company of those that also hold this belief, very strongly, that they are enlightened and this creates a false sense of attainment. It becomes a place where we simply massage egos instead of attempting to dissect the ego and remove its influence as the Master of our Life.

Even to state that a path is right is very subjective. When you abide as the Formless, all paths are right. All paths are like many rivers flowing towards the Mighty Ocean of Isness, of Fullness, of the Formless.

This is why it is important to understand that the journey is in progress and that despite knowing the destination, we have to be honest in saying we have not reached there yet. The signs are there, some distance has to be travelled for the mind to be able to integrate with the Formless, the Pure Isness of Life.

For me, you need three things to really excel in your spiritual journey.

One is to be truly honest. If you haven’t attained enlightenment, if you have not attained freedom from the mind then say so.

Two is to be humble. If you haven’t reached it, but you have an amazing spiritual path, an incredible Guru or Teacher then appreciate them but don’t belittle others. Pray that whatever path they are on, that they meet the Formless.

Three is to be passionate. If you haven’t got passion then you will not strive for enlightenment, for freedom from the mind. Passion to become the Formless needs to be your number one priority.

Recognize when a path has now become barren land for you. Before, this path was full of life, full of flowers and beautiful fragrances but now the ego has taken over and taken over the land of your mind. Keep moving forward and try and find a new path where the flowers are blooming again. When you find that path, rest as Formless Awareness, That which You are.

Poem: Reflection

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To check where I am at the end of 2016,
Another year has whizzed by,
With it blessings and losses,
The blessing is my marriage,
The loss is the Guru that I loved more than anything,
Snatched away in a moment,
Without a glimmer of hope of survival,
The One whom I still feel is alive
Would appear lifeless in the month of May.

I want to say that this year has been great,
But that would be a lie,
The aloneness I feel is not ordinary,
It seems like I have been forced into it,
I have had the aloneness look at me,
And I give in to it and the darkness is embraced.
Then I have a beautiful wife,
Who is like an angelic light
Who whispers to me that I am never alone,
And I smile and feel okay on the surface,
With the Light entering the roots of my mind eventually.

The tears that I shed contain my sadness and happiness,
The joys of being with someone who reminds me of Him,
Then the sadness of realising He is no longer here,
Although the presence of our Satguru is everywhere,
It can never be destroyed or even created,
It is transferred in every moment,
From one cell to one universe,
It is difficult to not be able to hear a response,
To have a hug and forget my troubles,
To have that one glance where our eyes meet,
I will know in that instance that God is here,
And I miss this interaction more and more everyday.

I may be lost today and trying to find my feet,
I may try to live in a reality where You are here,
Baba ji, it is not easy being without You,
For me a Guru is never born nor dies,
That is why I cannot understand this ‘death’,
You are aliveness and Fullness,
You are Formless and Boundless,
You are the Soundless Sound,
You are the Gateless Gate,
In 2017 this is what I need to reawaken,
I know where I am failing,
And that is where I will be picking myself up,
2016 has been a lesson not a defeat,
And 2017 will be lessons learned.

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My Satguru – Why I still need Him!

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I look at the picture of my Satguru, the Enlightened Teacher that has transformed my life and I can’t thank Him enough for all He has done.

His words although said in a simple way, once you get thinking about it, they enter a depth you never saw in the first instance. Is my Satguru misunderstood? Maybe. Do I understand Him? Not enough.

I have a close bond with Him and it is not because our families are close. It may have a part to play and I acknowledge that. However, what is the real relationship?

I am not shy to say that I have realised the Formless by the True Knowledge that my Satguru has given to me. This True Knowledge, known in sanskrit as Brahm Gyan, opens up your mind and body to accept the soul as the driver of your life. The Soul, the Eternal Witness realises that it is no longer the body and mind. It realises that it is a part of everything and everyone. Therefore, this ‘I’ that says it is realised is not of the mind or body and therefore does not belong to Rahul.

If I die today, I am liberated because my eyes have seen the true form of my Satguru. I know that He is not the body and mind but He is the very energy that I worship. The Supreme Consciousness that we can call God, that is Him. He is no less to that.

I am always asked that ‘What is the point of a Guru, if you have realised the Truth. If He tells you to worship the Formless, then why do you worship a form (Satguru) still?’ It is a very profound question and I’ve spent time answering it in many ways.

However, today I have a different take on the question. If I worship the Formless, I worship the Form the Formless has taken to reveal Himself. I worship that Form, who is a mirror and says to me that I can be like Him because I am Him. Without that Form of the Satguru, I wouldn’t know the Formless, I wouldn’t be able to perceive nor see the Formless, nor could I ever have a conversation with Him.

The fact is that the Guru does not need me but I need Him. I need Him when my faith falls because He shows me that it hasn’t fallen. You know why? He is always holding my hand, saving me from falling. He walks an extra step to remove any obstacles in my path so I do not trip up.

After realisation, it is hard to function in the world and this is where the Satguru is the most helpful. If you truly listen to Him, be connected to Him, have gratitude for Him, He will let your feeling of enlightenment not overwhelm you. It will allow you to stay alive because I have the same desire that He has. We have a world to protect and a humanity to keep alive. A humanity that is enlightened with the beauty of diversity. The Union between me and the Formless, the Union between me and the Satguru has united me with everything and I see it all as my own.

If you have a Guru, I would be honoured to read your experiences.

His blessings and love,
Rahul

Let’s be Practical!

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Once the Guru says something, do I take it with a pinch of salt and continue with my own way? Or do I take a moment to think and act accordingly to as the Guru prescribes. We read in our scriptures, in stories like the Puranas of devotees who acted simply at the hint of the Guru. We hear of the Guru celebrating them with great happiness but with a hint of sadness too as there may not be a devotee even similar.

The path that the Guru prescribes is never easy because it is allowing someone else to have the power over your thoughts and actions. Now for a lot of people this is difficult because the illusion is that they are in power. People even struggle with the fact that there can be a Guru. It isn’t a difficult concept either. Just like we have teachers in education, we have Gurus for spirituality. They have something above the typical teachers we see. A Guru is able to impart knowledge aswell as show their students how to live and implement it.

The Guru can be seen as an object of worship and devotion. Every morning that I wake up, I may not be anywhere near my Guru but I place my head at His feet. I have His blessings and whenever I need uplifting, I can close my eyes and place my head at His feet and feel His hand placed on my head and feeling the energy of the Divine power up the crown chakra. The Guru is the one that leads you to embrace the wordless, formless, beyond ideas and concepts, that which no thought can reach, no feeling or emotion can describe it or even feel it, it is beyond the comprehension of the mind, ungraspable by our intellect. This Truth that the Guru leads you to is everything you ever need. It is Fullness, it is Isness.

I can praise my Guru, have His blessings but I need to implement His teachings. Am I discriminating others on their language, age, nationality, sexuality, caste, religion, diet, dress and even their Gurus? Am I hurting other people consciously or unconsciously? Am I leading people to the Truth or am I taking them astray? Am I forgiving those who wrong me and do I ask for forgiveness from those that I wrong? Do I listen to others without judgement? Do I create conclusions of others before even knowing them? Do I feel greedy at any time, or selfish or even lustful? Do I pass all praise and criticism to the Formless? Until, I am able to say that I practice everything my Guru teaches, only then can I say He has blessed me. The problem isn’t that the blessings are not there, they are always here and now, but am I utilising them? Am I putting them to good use?

I do not want to be one of those that just shout empty slogans, make applauding speeches but little inner implementation in daily life, sing songs but feel miserable inside, recite and write poetry without an iota of experience manifesting in my daily routine and interactions with people.

It is time for some serious action and after listening to my Guru’s discourse this Saturday and again on Sunday, I feel I have a lot to do. If anything, I want to atleast be a reason for His smile. That whenever He hears my name, He smiles because I am committed to His cause and teachings. Commitment isn’t just a contract, it is actually living accordingly to the contract. And if I do not live according to the contract that I signed meaning the Divine Wisdom that my Guru revealed to me, then I am breaking the clauses in my contract. And let me add this, the punishment is simple – you do not live in bliss. What is the point of life without bliss?

Time for impactful action, less time for mindless reaction.

His love and blessings,
Rahul

Nirankar – The Love of my Life

“Form-of-the-Formless”-2012-Installation-01A vast, changeless, void that looks like nothingness or emptiness. An atom is 99.9% pure energy and what we see is really just 0.01% of the atom. The Formless Reality is everywhere and in everything. It is a state beyond nothingness. Nothingness cannot be nothing when you can observe nothingness. If an observer is present then that means there is an element of awareness within that nothingness. This element is what is formless – this is Nirankar.

David Bohm towards the end of his life had likened humanity to be the “mirror created by the universe to reflect upon itself.” What does this mean? Upon reflection, we can discover that if humanity is a mirror created by the universe to reflect upon itself then we know this isn’t far from the Upanishadic thought that Brahman created the world in order to discover Himself.

We live in an era where people place scientific thought to be based as truth rather than their own experience and documented spiritual realisations. This is where I feel people falter. Spirituality is considered just as ludicrous as dogmatic religion. Spirituality is about your own experience and the eventual realisation of why you are here. It is to discover the obvious fact which is that we are the 99.9% of the atom and the 0.01% is merely our physical forms that we see with our limited perceptions. How can we human beings with our limited minds be able to understand a complex universe that can do whatever it wants at any given time? We are at the will of the Universe or the 99.9% and we think the 0.01% with it’s limited apparatus can understand and measure the vastness of the Formless? This is madness.

The vastness of the Formless is beyond any words expressed here. It contains so much love that intensifies within every moment. Love is beyond every dimension and it is within every dimension. The purpose of the whole universe, the whole reason behind it realising itself is out of pure love.

Time fails in front of IT as this is Infinite. It is timeless. It goes beyond time. What is time? The future and past are both in the present and therefore there is nothing as past. It is one time at every given time. A moment is an eternity. How can Formless Energy be given the parameters of time? In fact, how can the Formless be measured? It cannot be measured. The only apparatus you have is your self and when you realise your self then you are one with the Formless. Then you feel the Formless Nirankar. Nirankar means formless. You and the Formless are unified and bind together. You both expand as one. When the walls are broken down, the bridge towards wisdom and clarity appears. This is when our heart opens up to devotion to the Formless. Our dancing becomes the dance. Our singing becomes the song. Our writing becomes the poem. Such is the experience when the Formless enters our consciousness. In fact, it does not enter your consciousness, it IS your consciousness.

The endeavour of all spiritual discovery is to live in the Light of the Formless, to live in the energy of the Formless. To accept the grace of the Formless and enjoy the blessing that showers upon the soul. The challenge in life is not about remembering the Formless, the real challenge is living as the Formless. People are doing this and I bow to them. They are blessed and they keep blessing me. I am humbled by the One who imparted this Divine Wisdom to me as it led to my realisation.

This realisation is the best thing. Nirankar, the Formless is the love of my life. I cannot trade this wisdom for anything as nothing can ever be valued against This. The realisation has allowed me to travel to dimensions untouched by the limited human mind, it has allowed me to travel through time to timelessness, it has allowed me to perceive matter as it is. It has allowed me to expand into this Vast Void and then dissolve into it so that only the Formless remains.

Nirankar is not nothing, it is everything!

Love,
Rahul

The Love of the Guru

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The moment I hear his voice, my whole world comes to a standstill, now it is only me and Him and that is all that matters. My Guru is my life, my soul, my everything. It is a relationship unlike any other. One way or another, we have relationships that expect and the expectations are impossible to meet. My Guru just expects me to realise who I am and the rest will follow.

What is special about my Satguru? Satguru means the teacher that leads you from darkness to light. He is modern, communicates with modern technology, understands that the future generation have a chance to change things, he is attentive to every detail and yet is able to be completely present. Some will see this and be like well there is nothing special about this. I would ask them try for 5 minutes to be aware of this present moment and see if you can? Most likely, they cannot pass one minute, yet my Guru practices this every day and doesn’t take this as an act to be done but an action that is continuously occurring.

A Guru is not someone that dictates things to you. He is a guide, and it is with His love and compassion that you feel comfortable in confiding in Him and trusting Him with your deepest issues. Issues that family cannot understand, friends will choose not to understand and yet, He will listen with great attention and with infinite compassion. This gives hope to me that one can achieve this state. A Guru doesn’t tell you that He can do something that you can’t. A Guru tells you that you can do everything that He is doing. It is simply surrendering the ego and entering the awakened vision. A vision of non-judgment, a bridging of all matter in the thread of oneness and non-duality. Diversity is found in unity and unity is found in diversity. This is the vision a Guru gives you.

It is not transmitted and yet it is. You still have to work for it but something clicks within you and then the heightened awareness appears. Once this occurs then the Guru’s grace descends and His blessings are fully emitted as you see the Formless. The Cause of all Creation, we call Him – Nirankar.

I cannot explain in mere words what a Guru can do for you. If you do approach a genuine one and I feel I have. He is genuine, humble, kind and extremely likeable. He is down to earth but His wisdom reaches the farthest star. I know people say that this could be my feeling but I say why not meet Him? Why not try to get to know Him? Much is misunderstood in the Guru-disciple relationship and only a perfect Guru can eliminate all doubts and delusions.

We all say we are willing to be adventurous but the real adventure is when the Guru shows you that self-realisation is through god-realisation. Having god-realisation, you may find oneness between you and Him but there will still be a subtle difference. You may realise God and that is great but even greater is allowing God to present Himself in your Self. Your True Self. Then Oneness becomes Isness. This Isness is the Guru’s blessings.

Love,
Rahul