Memories and Machines

I have often wondered about the nature of Existence and how great it is. From stardust to planets to human beings and possibly a hybrid of human and technology. In fact, the way phones are glued to people right now, it can feel like you are talking to part human and part machine!

The crazy thing about the human condition is that we were already machines in a social construct. We are fed what to think by everyone around us, the media, our job, our beliefs and they all made us into machines that kept going and going until one day, we are about to die and we feel that we have never lived before and in these last moments, we are feeling life, fresh and new.

Except for the mystics, who have this immense grasp on living in the present moment, loving each moment and living life as if it is a new day that has never been experienced, despite living in routine day in and day out. They have something amazing and it is worth exploring maybe another time.

However, our attachments to social media or our phones has really led us into not feeling connected. It is so strange but that human touch is so much more sacred, so pure that if it is ignored, it will be detrimental to that person and even society at large. Although, I now live in the USA and my parents live in the UK, I do miss them but to know the true depth of that connection is only going to be discovered when I meet them. When I touch their feet (it is a spiritual custom to touch the feet of others as the divine is in them too) and take their blessings. When I give them a hug, that joy cannot translate itself in pictures, no matter if I do capture that perfect moment.

The other part of connection is the awareness of our memories and as I live away from my parents, my memories of my parents gives me connection, it makes me miss them and love them as if I was with them. In fact, my mind can even visualize that I am meeting them.

The point is how can I capture those memories if I am not present, if I am not observing my surroundings? Have you ever heard anyone remind you of a memory when you was on the phone? Like a deep memory. Not really. I can count on that I have probably missed so many memories because I was busy taking out my phone and trying to capture it. Then never looking at those pictures again. I can’t remember when I went into my photos app on my smartphone to go through the memories. Memories are meant to be imprinted in the mind not on phones.

When my brother died, I didn’t capture the moment he died on my cellphone. I lived through it with him. I wanted to experience the moment my brother would breathe his last. I allowed all that memory to be stored in my mind. Likewise, this is what I value today, that I was with him. That I held his hand, that I prayed that he would merge with the One.

We will all end up losing our loved ones and it is such a sad but inevitable part of life but if we have photos captured as well as memories then we are true winners. My point is that the generation(s) that just believes in taking pictures on their phone at any given moment, or we are looking down on our phones without living each moment, connecting with each action and thought we take, we will lose this great opportunity of being human.

Again, I often wonder about the nature of existence and I am so happy to be alive and that if my next breath were to be my last, I am happy.

 

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Poem – Swept Alone

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This pain calms down and settles,
You feel that it is still and grounded,
Suddenly you are swept away,
Struggling to think as a wave crashes against you.
Then you realise it is an earthquake
Everything is crumbling down,
A tornado vacuums all your happiness,
And then it all stops.
You would call this a time of disaster
But now nothing is happening,
And this nothing feels like a disaster.
Atleast the activity kept me busy,
Now all I have is myself
And I don’t know where I have gone.
I went out on a journey,
Travelling against land and sea,
Still my Beloved is missing.
I seek for those eyes,
I seek for that smile,
I seek for that embrace,
I feel lost without You,
I am all alone at sea,
No activity not even myself,
Enlightenment without You
Feels like I am all alone.

@rahulnsinghpoetry

Temptation – A Positive Approach

temptation_to_no_avail_be46Temptation is annoying. Damn annoying and the annoying thing about this is the fact that you are in control of your temptations. What is it that triggers the temptation? What then fuels this temptation? Obviously, thought always gives energy to temptation or to anything that we wish to remove ourselves from.

Being on a vegan diet is difficult as it is. I recently went into Waitrose (I am not middle class) and they do quite a bit for us vegan peeps. They had these ginger – chocolately biscuit bites and they are pretty yum. However, I have put them in the freezer and I want one. I could give in to temptation as I salivate about them now or prove determination over temptation. Today, I wanted to avoid sweet things and wanted a healthy day. Trust me, when chocolate is scarce already then all you can think about is chocolate.

Temptation happens in all parts of life. The temptation to look at an attractive woman or come across an amazing and beautiful woman on instagram or facebook, especially the ones you know and you have that desire to pursue that temptation and then reality sticks its nose in it and it is all over. You start thinking of reasons why it cannot and should not work. You think of the last time she rejected you and stopped talking to you and mentioning how hot she looks may literally be the last nail in the coffin to any possibility of ‘something’ later. What is this ‘something’ beats me.

When I am meditating, I feel like putting my attention and awareness on the occasional itch on my arm. The itch that never occurs otherwise but suddenly finds it amusing to happen now. You can’t take the intensity of the meditation and 5 seconds feels like 5 hours. How can one be still? The temptation to move gets stronger and stronger. However, your determination wins, your willpower is victorious because no way will you let anything stop you from your goal.

The times when someone ignores you and you just want to tell them that it isn’t cool. They have posted on Facebook, Instagram or whatever. Nowadays, snapchat easily shows someone opening your post thing and they don’t reply to it. Sad times! However, why should people reply? That is attention seeking. My existence isn’t worth the response of every single person. It is mad and I don’t respond to everyone’s and that is because I think my life is the best! Madness I tell you!

Temptation is crazy and yet, it is what makes you grow. Be happy that you are tempted because it shows that you can make your willpower stronger and stronger. It is a gym session for your willpower. Temptation can be made positive if you want it to. And if temptation wins then so what. Sometimes, eating that ginger biscuit chocolate bite thing may make you happy. Telling that one woman that you have secretly been attracted to her can be the beginning of a blossoming relationship. Scratching that itch may help you get back to meditation and moving may make your bottom feel less numb! Also, telling those people not to ignore you may create a conversation that will eventually change your life. I know it does sound incredibly ideal but let’s be real, whatever was once ideal has become a reality. I remember being a kid and thinking about cameras on mobile phones being revolutionary! So things can be done.

Whatever it is that tempts you right now and you see a spark of positivity in it then go for it. If it doesn’t work out then fair enough, their loss aswell as yours!

Love and blessings,
Rahul