Mirror of my mind

I take a look in the mirror of my mind now and then,
And I ask myself how many more talks are needed?
My mind runs through each talk with a quickening pace, 
Often losing track of what was spoken a second ago. 

I take a look in the mirror of my mind now and then, 
And I ask myself how many more books are needed?
My mind passes through multiple books simultaneously, 
Forgetting unique perspectives from the previous chapter.

I take a look in the mirror of my mind now and then, 
And I ask myself what more is there that I can do?
My mind gently tells me to keep practicing,
And I ask it again again on what I should practice on?

I took one last look in the mirror of my mind, 
My mind presented every thought and emotion held, 
Then one by one it took each thought and emotion away, 
Until nothing was left and my mind disappeared with it. 

The best that I could be

Our moments that we spent together,

I loved each one of them.

Yeah, I admit that I wasn’t the best,

But I’m the best that I could be.

 

I knew that one day you’ll hate me,

Losing you my best friend is killing me.

I want you to know that I care,

I’m freezing up inside, missing your warmth.

 

I may have been the romantic hero for a while,

Running for your love and I couldn’t stop.

Searching through these sand storms,

Surrounding me are the grains of my mistakes.

 

The wind picks up meeting an extreme,

Damn, these grains are slashing my heart away.

Your anger for me is makin’ my blood boil.

How could I hurt the one I care about the most?

 

Life is simply full of my own surprises,

My calculated words achieving the unwanted wanted.

Then why do I, tell me why do I say I’m surprised.

I can’t look at myself no more, it’s killing me.

 

The stench of crimes will never disappear,

Why am I trying to wage a deal with the devil?

If she wants to forgive then let her do it in her own time,

Why am I enforcing my own cursed will?

 

She doesn’t care that I will die for her,

She doesn’t care that I will give my life to her.

She doesn’t care that I will smile for her.

She doesn’t care that I will live only for her.

 

Beat me with these stones

Let them cut deep to my bones.

I need to learn to be all alone,

In your love I’m going to drown.

 

My heart stone.

Just a couple of bones.

Gonna be all alone.

In my love I’m gonna drown.

 

Rahul N Singh