Poem – Swept Alone

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This pain calms down and settles,
You feel that it is still and grounded,
Suddenly you are swept away,
Struggling to think as a wave crashes against you.
Then you realise it is an earthquake
Everything is crumbling down,
A tornado vacuums all your happiness,
And then it all stops.
You would call this a time of disaster
But now nothing is happening,
And this nothing feels like a disaster.
Atleast the activity kept me busy,
Now all I have is myself
And I don’t know where I have gone.
I went out on a journey,
Travelling against land and sea,
Still my Beloved is missing.
I seek for those eyes,
I seek for that smile,
I seek for that embrace,
I feel lost without You,
I am all alone at sea,
No activity not even myself,
Enlightenment without You
Feels like I am all alone.

@rahulnsinghpoetry

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Post 47 – The emergence of the ‘New Guy’…

“Apparently I am the sinner. I am the person that is wrong. I am the one that should be blamed. What do I do next?”

This is the question and the statements of what I call the ‘New Guy’! The ‘New Guy’ is the one that every girl talks about and wants. But hey, he is not going to be the girl’s so easily. Why should he? He needs to make sure his energy is worth being spent on a girl. The fact is this guy has had his heart, mind and body burnt thanks to the super bad ex! The ex that will remain ‘the one that broke me’ or as some guys say ‘the whore’! The latter is not a term I like to use but I can see the emotion behind it.

The emergence of the ‘New Guy’ had to happen. There are too many typical guys and unfortunately girls, no matter what, if you go after a typical guy, then your taste is very typical. So the ‘New Guy’ sees this and thinks to himself, why should I bother going after girls? Let them come to me. His ex will be a pain in the ass. If he says he will never talk again, she will somehow put him down and prove to him that in the past, he cannot resist but talk to her. In a way she wins, but when he stops talking then she will realise the effects. You see the ‘New Guy’ may think his ex is a complete bitch, a stuck-up cow who has no dignity whatsoever but the ‘New Guy’ somehow will make sure she has a positive life. His negativity towards her will have an underlying positivity that she remains safe and well out of harm. In fact the ‘New Guy’ is not nice and is not typical, he is in between. He can make a girl feel like a Queen or like a woman on the streets.

So this ‘New Guy’ I have not called it a ‘nice guy’ because they do not exist. These ‘nice guys’ are fake and they have underlying negativity over a girl, in fact they are so cheap that in their ‘nice’ ways they will control the girl. No one will see it but he is a cunning dog controlling his bitch. The ‘New Guy’ will show he can be typical if needs be but he can be nice when needs be. He doesn’t have to be typical unless the girl deserves to be shown what she is worth.

Now, with the emergence of the ‘New Guy’ has made sure that his ex will hate him for life. None of his exes will want to be near him because they know he has no fear to express what he feels. He is open in saying ‘I am playing mind games’ but you see the ‘nice guy’ will play mind games in her personal life. He will control her life. The ‘New Guy’ will say openly how much he hates his ex but will happily romance her at the same time. A bit like the character ‘Dr House’ from House M.D! An acid tongue but an honest heart.

With the ‘New Guy’ the ‘New Girl’ has emerged. She doesn’t mind staying single, she is no longer dependent on the male. In fact, she is exactly like the ‘New Guy’ but just the opposite gender. Romantic but with a sense of reality. A sense of expression with no repression. It is risky to express reality but they can do it. Now all that needs to be done is for the ‘New Guy’ and ‘New Girl’ to meet and prove to the ‘nice’ and ‘typical’ guys and girls, that we are the whole package, we are multi-dimensional not one-dimensional like you fools!

Rahul N Singh

The best that I could be

Our moments that we spent together,

I loved each one of them.

Yeah, I admit that I wasn’t the best,

But I’m the best that I could be.

 

I knew that one day you’ll hate me,

Losing you my best friend is killing me.

I want you to know that I care,

I’m freezing up inside, missing your warmth.

 

I may have been the romantic hero for a while,

Running for your love and I couldn’t stop.

Searching through these sand storms,

Surrounding me are the grains of my mistakes.

 

The wind picks up meeting an extreme,

Damn, these grains are slashing my heart away.

Your anger for me is makin’ my blood boil.

How could I hurt the one I care about the most?

 

Life is simply full of my own surprises,

My calculated words achieving the unwanted wanted.

Then why do I, tell me why do I say I’m surprised.

I can’t look at myself no more, it’s killing me.

 

The stench of crimes will never disappear,

Why am I trying to wage a deal with the devil?

If she wants to forgive then let her do it in her own time,

Why am I enforcing my own cursed will?

 

She doesn’t care that I will die for her,

She doesn’t care that I will give my life to her.

She doesn’t care that I will smile for her.

She doesn’t care that I will live only for her.

 

Beat me with these stones

Let them cut deep to my bones.

I need to learn to be all alone,

In your love I’m going to drown.

 

My heart stone.

Just a couple of bones.

Gonna be all alone.

In my love I’m gonna drown.

 

Rahul N Singh

They are all down on me

Tell me what’s your advise,

Come on Miss. I am so wise.

Choose your friends carefully,

Cos’ they are all down on me.

 

I’m saving your heart from break,

Let’s give this ego a little shake.

They are after your mind and body,

Pretending to be a special somebody.

 

When this becomes an unfolded drama,

I’m gonna regretfully say ‘it’s your karma’

You can deal with your own bullshit,

I no longer find you sexy or fit.

 

Rejecting what is true from my heart,

In the future they will say ‘you’re a tart’

I could have added some icing of respect,

I taught you how to truly introspect.

 

You were my one and only Mumtaz;

From ‘this is’, you have become ‘this was’.

Look at the depths of your heart debts,

You can’t blink in case you miss my threat.

 

The situation is clear and not hazy,

You can’t make it work cos’ you’re lazy.

Your ignorance is always in my face,

You no longer have my heart in a chase.

 

I’m over you and your bad vibes,

Your innocence is a devilish jibe.

I’m no longer in your cage,

Please start acting your age.

 

I have the love of the millions,

Their love gives me that ignition.

They take me to a next stage,

Their love is the true rage.

 

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Lots of love and God bless.

Rahul N Singh

Homeless

I was once a stranger to you,
Living in a home like a homeless.
My heart never knew the truth,
That love makes you homeless.

I am one of the thousands
That touched the thorn of love.
I allowed the thorn cut deep,
My blood gushing the pain out.

Love is a fatal medicine
That removes the scar of your love.
To love another whilst in love
Made me love you even more.

I was in a state of nakedness with you,
My scars laid out bare.
Then you hurt me like the others
And tore all those unseen scars.

Love, I repeat is my only medicine
And it is love I commit to.
Not to love a person but to love itself,
This is my story of love.

Lots of love and God bless

Rahul N Singh

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