3 ways that wonder has helped me

The ability to wonder is truly what makes life worth living. I am sure there have been moments for you when you have seen the world through the eyes of wonder. You see things with a new vision, you see things in a new light and nothing ever looks repeated.

Sometimes, I feel that I lack wonder when it is such a natural state to be in. I tend to judge things or interpret things when really if I truly saw it with wonder, it could open new doors to perception.

It may be that words are never enough to express the importance of wonder but let me give you three ways that being in wonder has helped me so far:

  1. I understand the limitations to my perception when I view things with the past or the future.
  2. I gain new insights and can express creatively.
  3. Love flows not only freely but endlessly too.

Being in wonder has been a spiritual goal of mine for quite some time now, it is the letting go of the ego which is so important if we want to live a life of wonder.

Being a slave to the ego only harms what wonder can bring. Like I said, that open-mind, that creative mind is what makes the world a better place.

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The Beauty of Laughter

Laughter is an important part of a relationship, it enhances it a great deal. It is truly beautiful to just laugh and look into each other’s eyes and be playful to the moment. It is something of tremendous importance that we sometimes overlook because of the seriousness of every day life.

We are constantly worried about the bills, about the next pay check, the next grocery shopping that we forget that even if we are on top of things and comfortable, without any laughter or joy, our relationships would matter very little for us.

Laughter has a quality of bringing you closer to your friends and loved ones. There is an intimacy with laughter that nobody can truly explain except that it makes relationships and their bonds stronger and more resilient to negative forces.

Laughter brings about a positivity that makes a dark room light up, a dark mind light up, a dark soul light up.

Freedom in the Formless

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As I sat in contemplation last night at a gathering last night, I kept thinking of the words in the title of this blog – Freedom in the Formless. It felt like an inner voice guiding me that I had to write about this and explore what it meant.

I regularly attend a spiritual gathering and the fundamental teaching is that we are all formless and that we can understand this by understanding that the world that we see around us is eventually formless when we break it all down. When we know that beyond the universe is formless, we can contemplate within that we are also Formless.

I find this to be a very powerful thought, which in the beginning it simply is a thought. Then as we begin to contemplate on it, meditate on it, we slowly begin to feel like the Formless and then we become Formless. The closest material to the Formless is love. In fact, love helps us a lot in spirituality. My wife is amazing at helping me grow spiritually and ensuring that I don’t remain stagnant. She is a perfect mirror for me and every time I think of her, I am overwhelmed with this sense of unconditional love. I don’t know why I love her, I just do. I don’t mean to be all romantic here, but simply stating we can feel spiritual concepts within our own homes and that my wife has allowed me to dive back into my spirituality.

The one thing that I love is when I express how I feel about the day with my wife, I express my emotions and I have slowly seen how anger is slipping away from me. There was a time maybe in 2013/2014 where I didn’t experience anger at all. It just never happened. Many things could have stirred that anger but I was so drenched in my experiences of the Formless, anger just couldn’t rise. I didn’t overcome it, I let it rest for a while.

Then in 2017, my anger started coming back. Questions appeared and no answers were good enough. The problem was not about the answers that people gave, they gave the best answers they could but I had the answers within me all the time. However, I didn’t have the time to look at my own answers. I was angry with the world, angry with the circumstances and most of all, angry at the lack of love. Which is hilarious when I think about it, being angry at the lack of love. However, it felt so true at the time. I couldn’t understand how far we stepped back when it came to following spiritual principles that were held on to so tightly like love, understanding, forgiveness and acceptance.

Yesterday, while talking to my wife, I expressed that there was a time in my life when I didn’t get angry. I would raise my voice a little but it never grew into anger. I stayed calm for most of the time as I was so aware of my own self. My wife very beautifully asked – “But you meditated a lot back then?” and I replied that I did and that I used to wake up at 4am in the morning and meditate for an hour (Thank you Dad for waking me up at 4am). I got rid of a lot of the emotions that disturbs the peace of humans. However, in 2017 and especially 2018, my anger and those other disturbing emotions came back again. The only answer was and is a lack of meditation and awareness that I am formless. Not conceptually but experientially.

It has been in recent times that I have noticed my anger has been a regular visitor to my consciousness. It feels like a guest that has overstayed its welcome. I keep showing it the door but it keeps staying for yet another night. The only reason this happens is because I choose to let the Formless stay out for another night.

Although, I haven’t spoken much about what freedom in the formless means but this is reflective of a past that was good but a present that has all the possibility of becoming better. All that is needed is for me to go into that wisdom that shows me that within me, it is all Formless. In this vast experience, where is anger, jealousy, greed, lust or pride? These tiny specks of the human experience have enlarged themselves so much that they live in the majority of our days. I feel it is a time to bring an end to that. How do we do that? Awareness, we need to become aware of our own awareness.

How much am I aware in the day that my body is Formless? How much am I aware in the day that my mind is Formless? How much am I aware in the day that I am simply the Formless? In fact, how much am I aware that there is nothing but the Formless? Do I dive into these contemplations everyday? Maybe we should try it out for a week. See how it goes and what happens. It is an experiment where the only thing you could lose is your ego – the nucleus of all the negative emotions.

Let’s come back to this next week and share what we have discovered.

It’s okay…

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It’s okay to feel exhausted on some days, it is okay to feel that the whole world is resting upon your shoulders and it is absolutely okay to be overwhelmed. Sometimes, we are told that we need to think a little more positive, be a bit more optimistic and all we want to do is allow these emotions to live out their short-life span.

If happiness is our natural state, then like clouds across a blue sky, let the cloud of emotions pass by and the blue sky of happiness will appear. I believe the best way to ever deal with emotions is to be aware of them and be okay with it. As you know that ultimately nothing remains the same, all this shall pass.

We definitely have the power to overrule our emotions, we can smile when we have been uncontrollably crying at the kind request of a loved one. We know we have that capacity but all I really want you to know is that it is okay to let your emotions pass by and yes, your happiness remains untouched and unblemished. I know this sounds a little strange but what I am trying to express here is that sadness and happiness is separate and they don’t mix well. You can’t be in the middle. Some people say they are okay, neither happy nor sad. However, I still see this as sadness as it is an unrecognized place.

Let me know if you agree or disagree with me. I would love to know your views.

Your Presence Prevails

10808bf51ff30249a8b83f13f7095d2fThe Guru dispels all darkness of the mind. The mind is in the delusion that it is the body with psychological impressions. The mind is given power by the soul and the soul is in the illusion that it is what the mind is. It takes on a different identity and leads a double life. This double life is the cause of disruption, stress and incredible ignorance that has loyalty towards the ego.

The only way the mind is free from the body and psychological impressions is simply by the elimination of the ego. When the ego is removed from the equation, the soul has access to the mind. When this happens, even for a split second and the Guru is present to give you the Eternal Wisdom then enlightenment can happen in a split second. A journey of bliss continues.

However, this is not the case for everyone and certainly not for me. I was given the Eternal Wisdom, also known as Brahm Gyan by my Guru while ‘my’ ego was running riot. The ego has most definitely calmed down as I transition into soul consciousness, which is god consciousness. However, my ego has put up a good fight and doesn’t look to be taking flight any time soon.

As I mentioned the Guru dispels all darkness of the mind, this is when one remembers the awareness of the Formless, this is the Eternal Wisdom. Understanding and having the realization that this Formless is everywhere and everything, the elements of compassion and acceptance are at the forefront of every decision, even every word.

The ego can put up a fight and the real YOU, that is Formless Awareness can watch all this happening. This is the clearest indicator to show that the ego doesn’t control you. If it did control you then it would incessantly control what you should be aware of. It does its best but in front of the Formless, it is weaker.

When you are in the awareness of the Formless, your ego slowly weakens. It is a gradual process. The only time it can speed up is when you have the physical darshan or receive a loving glance from the Guru. Even in that moment, you must be receptive to it, sensitive to it and open to it. If you are just going to meet the Guru without any intention to be transformed, then nothing will happen. A small urge to be transformed is required.

Spiritual complacency is what happens when we feel the glance (darshan) of the Guru has taken out the ego forever. The Guru never promises this, the disciple somehow falls under this subtle but devastating delusion. The ego and it’s influence has only weakened, not necessarily destroyed. It is reminding yourself of this glance, contemplating upon it, being aware of the Formless that is within everything, only then is the ego on the fast-track to be transcended as you take the flight into the beingness of the Formless.
This is what liberation is. This is what my Guru described to me and I am trying to live in this.

Without Him being here physically, I am fortunate to have had atleast 10 of those darshans, those glances that pierced through my ego, weakening it to the point that only a little bit is required to destroy it once and for all. Then Formless consciousness will be my way of life, it will be my life.

However, with His physical absence, my ego got a little stronger. It thought that my spiritual journey will come to a halt, it would be finished. I would stop having faith, I would stop having the desire to become enlightened as the ego believes that I have to become enlightened, it doesn’t know that I am enlightened. However, I know this intellectually, but experientially I am not there yet.

The ego thinks it is winning and I am here to tell it that Baba ji is more alive than ever! The darshans He blessed me with, those glances are not forgotten. They are with me always. 2 years on, they are stronger than ever. Why? I cannot allow His positive efforts, His precious time that He blessed the Earth with, go to absolute waste.

Baba Ji was the most beautiful being that I had ever come across. Falling in love with Him was a sheer joy for my heart. Crying in the darkness of many nights, seeking His darshan when He was physically here and physically absent, even those moments were one of incredible beauty. He always appeared and will always appear in front of me. His smile is imprinted into my consciousness. Nobody can take this away, no organization can claim ownership of this.

Dear Baba ji, my Beloved, appreciating my limited time in Your presence, full of gratitude, this journey towards being the Formless started with You and it will end with You, however, the journey never ends, it continues. Whatever the outcome of my life, I am grateful that I got to live a few moments with You and had taken breaths in the name of Hardev. For me, you were never born and you can never die, You were, are and always will be fully alive.

You are my journey and destination – Hardev, the Formless Resident of my soul knocking on the door of my mind and I can see my ego moving aside, dissolving away to let Your presence prevail for Eternity.

Being on the Right Path is Not Enlightenment

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Being on the spiritual path is one thing. Being enlightened is totally another thing. Sometimes I feel when I hear people talking about being enlightened, it really is not enlightenment at all. It is more an appreciation or recognition of the spiritual path they are on.

The delusion that it is enlightenment causes great harm for one’s spiritual progress. The drive for growth is cut prematurely and it will be hard to invoke growth when the ego is strengthened as it establishes itself in the false delusion of enlightenment.

Sometimes we are in the company of those that also hold this belief, very strongly, that they are enlightened and this creates a false sense of attainment. It becomes a place where we simply massage egos instead of attempting to dissect the ego and remove its influence as the Master of our Life.

Even to state that a path is right is very subjective. When you abide as the Formless, all paths are right. All paths are like many rivers flowing towards the Mighty Ocean of Isness, of Fullness, of the Formless.

This is why it is important to understand that the journey is in progress and that despite knowing the destination, we have to be honest in saying we have not reached there yet. The signs are there, some distance has to be travelled for the mind to be able to integrate with the Formless, the Pure Isness of Life.

For me, you need three things to really excel in your spiritual journey.

One is to be truly honest. If you haven’t attained enlightenment, if you have not attained freedom from the mind then say so.

Two is to be humble. If you haven’t reached it, but you have an amazing spiritual path, an incredible Guru or Teacher then appreciate them but don’t belittle others. Pray that whatever path they are on, that they meet the Formless.

Three is to be passionate. If you haven’t got passion then you will not strive for enlightenment, for freedom from the mind. Passion to become the Formless needs to be your number one priority.

Recognize when a path has now become barren land for you. Before, this path was full of life, full of flowers and beautiful fragrances but now the ego has taken over and taken over the land of your mind. Keep moving forward and try and find a new path where the flowers are blooming again. When you find that path, rest as Formless Awareness, That which You are.

When One meets an Enlightened Master

KA2_092-7167011-52055_650x250The inquiry that is held for a spiritual aspirant is one that is dealt with in complete honesty and based on the truth alone. This inquiry deepens as the insight settles and a new door to Existence is discovered, opened and one walks through it.

There comes a time when one has to truly evaluate on the progress one has made. If I am not going to evaluate, if I carry on blindly in the darkness, will Light every really enter my heart? The evaluation must also occur on a regular basis.

The path begins when one meets an Enlightened Master. In the East, we call them ‘Satguru’ which means the Teacher of Truth. It is in this very meeting that one realizes that the ego has been running the show and that now it is time to realize who the True Self is – it is an entity, an energy that is without form, without image, without an other. It is eternal and infinite. It is birthless and deathless. It is upon this discovery that the seeker finds themselves grateful for what the Enlightened Master has shown and begins to refine their being with this realization of their True Self.

There comes a time when one has to leave the Enlightened Master and in fact, it would be encouraged by the Enlightened Master that you should now walk alone as everything that could be given, every pointing that has been pointed to, every teaching that has been taught now rests in the space of your own self.

It is the moment of surrender when one leaves the Enlightened Master, grateful and with great respect, the seeker leaves and starts to unleash the potential of the Self within. This is the grace of the Enlightened Master. This is truly the purpose of the Enlightened Master.

If an Enlightened Master has accumulated followers that begin to feel they know everything, that they have the Truth then things stagnate. The birth of a new religion is there instead of a movement. Arrogance and dependency is born, along with it fear and anxiety.

Questions arise of life without the Enlightened Master. In fact, even to ask this question will create much dread. This brings about blind faith. The Enlightened Master has shown the way, now the apparent ‘seekers’ close the door, they build a gate, they build a wall so that you can’t escape.

In this moment, there is little the Enlightened Master can do. Escaping is an option, and the seekers that are true, that know that their wings are to be used, they understand that it is not the Messenger that is important, it is the Message. Once they realize this, they fly and along with it, the Enlightened Message follows.

The followers adore the Messenger, they do so out of their own ego. They build up an ‘us vs. them’ attitude, they begin to feel that the world doesn’t know the truth because they have got the Messenger. Little do they realize, that without the Message, the Messenger can do very little.

The Message lives in those that move beyond the convention of Master-Disciple and merge into the Oneness of Seeker-Enlightened Master-Formless Energy. This is the Holy Trinity. This is the Ultimate Peak in the spiritual process.

When the Enlightened Master leaves their body, do not fear. Do not lose hope. Go back to the Message. Go back to the Truth that was unveiled to you in the very first meeting. Begin to practice again. Re-awaken the drive to do the best you can in your spiritual journey.

One thing has to be understand, neither is the seeker perfect nor is the Enlightened Master perfect. Both are human and to be human is to have ‘flaws’. People term it as flaws but it is actually the personality of the individual. The inherent Spirit remains untouched and is fully embraced by the Message. The embodiment of the Message remains perfect.

The ego of a follower can do anything, it can turn the Greatest Being into a breathing Statue and begins to worship the body alone. The relationship between a true seeker and the Enlightened Master has to be based on development and personal tutelage. Without these two, can real spiritual growth occur?

Maybe an Enlightened Master has hundreds of thousands of followers but really they are only available for a few? An organization may be created out of this but it is those few that remain beyond the organization and their hearts become the beating heart of the Enlightened Master.

There are problems with having a Guru and there are benefits in having a Guru. Who knows if your Guru is a SatGuru. Many claim this title of ‘Satguru’ in the spiritual community. Maybe, it is a matter of faith. The way I see it, a Teacher of Truth (Satguru) shows you, your true being. They show you that you are the embodiment of God in the simplest way possible. Anyone that teaches you that there is a difference, even if it is subtle between you and God, or you and the Guru – then that Teacher is enforcing duality.

The fundamental question that I am posing here is whether it is good or bad to have a Guru or an Enlightened Master (Satguru)? I will say it is better to have one, grab the Message and FLY with it.